So there happened something not too long ago...
Between me and ''Bucket''..
And he said I seemed to be a bit bitter...
And there he got me.
Yes, I am actually a bitter person, I just do not show it.
Do not worry, I am not gonna be all dark and edgy and such !
And betray all mah friends 'cuz it's what a edgy person does ypuypupyup- //slapped
It's just that..
He saw the true me.
That he now may know the true me a bit.
We had a conversation, I started rambling my actual words.
I seemed a bit bitter, but I truly am bitter.
I think some persons now are confused and such, but do not worry.
I am still doing fine.
Because this poetry is just fucking pathetic, just as me.
Just doing it for the show.
Then I gotta ask myself why I make it public..
But you know me, PC aka Puppet.
Maybe some can ''relate'' or it is enjoyable to read !
I somehow can't understand why persons still like me.
Such shame as me.
I really cannot understand.
I rather do not have friends, and I rather shut myself off from everyone else as much as I can.
I do not go out with my friends, I feel like I do not have any.
I did have some, but I feel like I lost them.
But maybe it's due me, how I actually see myself on a higher level then others.
It does not make me go all mean and such, it just shuts me away.
The thing what happened between me and Bucket, we broke up, felt like another sign.
Another sign of how I am not good enough, other sign that others are actually the ones who seem better.
I only was upset for a few seconds. Why?
Because this is not the first time.
I have seen this coming.
This always happens anyways, and I knew it would come.
But after all, he shouldn't be around me.
Not your every-day kid with problems, but a pathetic person.
But that's how I am special.
Not due art, but due who I truly am.
I do not hate Bucket, I think I just can't truly trust anyone.
I rather just hate myself.
I also didn't have time for a relationship at all.
Let stand, having time for any friends.
I don't need to have ''Fun'', it's optional.
I do not have time for such things, it only shall be in my way.
Do note, that this does not mean I do not love my friends.
I love them a lot.
I do not have any time for him, and it doesn't matter..
Friend, Or Not.